Monthly Archives: October 2011

Folly of the youth


So yesterday morning my brother’s wife apparently gave her daughter a stern talking-to about messing around in my stuff, which of course resulted in a sulking and petulant teen. And she thought I must be a total idiot (she’s not aware that I take pictures of her misdemeanours) because she went right back and fiddled.

It’s less obvious than the previous day, except…

I was sitting on my bed rubbing my hair dry when something on her desk caught my eye. A little box. A little box I keep at the back of my drawer. Inside my little box there’s a tiny fairy pendant with a round amber stone. I bought it last year at the African Mineral and Gem exhibition in Brooklyn Mall. It cost me R120 – the price was still floating on the soft cotton the pendant lays. When I opened the box, all is as I had it, except for a piece of paper from a plaster. I closed it, and waited.

When my brother came home I said I wanted to show him something. He went very quiet after I told him the box’s history, and told me to put it back in my drawer. He then offered to give me a cupboard where I can lock my stuff up. This is not a solution for me, because it means that I’m going through the hassle of locking up and fetching out my stuff everyday, while she’s getting away with being an insolent little bitch.

Then her mother came and “gave me permission” to confront her the next time she messes in my stuff. I said thanks, but thought to myself, if she has no regard for any kind of discipline her parents try to impose (when they can be bothered to), why would she pay any mind to anything I have to say. The only thing that might break her is carrying on with my daily pictures, confronting her every single day if that’s what it comes down to, showing her that she’s not as cunning as she thinks she is.



Spot the difference


Since moving in with my brother and his new family in August, I’ve been concerned about my precious (expensive) makeup being abused by the fourteen-year-old brat I share my room with. Finally I decided to do a little experiment. Yesterday, before leaving the house, I left a little note in my makeup drawer, telling her in no uncertain terms to leave my stuff alone, and took a picture. I don’t think she thought I’d do that. Below is that picture.

When I got home yesterday afternoon I had to first put away the iron and ironing board blocking the way to my bed, turn a blind eye to the scattering of sanitary pads on the floor, and then opened my top drawer. This is what I found:

Can you see the difference? I was so angry (and still, everytime I think about it I start shaking all over) I thought I was going to have a stroke. The worst part of it all is that despite having this evidence, I can’t confront her. So I repeated the experiment again, and if she’s been in my stuff again (I didn’t say anything yesterday to let on I know she’s been in my stuff, and the note I left this morning was in a different font).

I’m desperate to now find alternative residence until our place is finished (hopefully end of November) for the sake of my stuff not being used by a selfish little bitch. I’m tired of bottling up all the anger and frustration, and it’s no wonder I constantly feel tired and sick.

I just wanted to get all this out of my system, and I suppose verification that I’m not insane and that she is, in fact, messing around in my stuff.

October zombie


This month – Fetid Feline. First it caught a mouse and then it faced off against Rabid Rottie. The cat’s a little top/front heavy and needs to be supported or propped against something.

It seems to be getting easier to make these. And now I only have two left 😦 I really do love paper art.

Tarot bonus – Court Card


I decided to find my Court Card

In the Tarot, the Court Cards can represent people, moods or events, or aspects of your own personality. Each Court Card corresponds to an astrological sign, but also has a distinctive personality flavor.

Below are my two cards – one astrological and one relating to my personality. I can definitely identify traits of myself in both. I find this rather fascinating.

Queen of Wands

Card 1 (Queen of Wands) : Your Astrological Court Card  »

She has the ability to turn heads when she walks into a room and to command attention with simply a smile or a laugh. When she ‘turns it on’ people notice her!

Passionate, warm and enigmatic she is the life and soul of the party – the woman that other women want to be like. She may draw many male admirers.

She needs to feel good about herself, so what she does for a living and her intimate relationships both require passion.

Not afraid to share her thoughts and feelings, some may be intimidated by her extrovert personality; however this doesn’t really bother her.

She is the intrepid journalist, pioneering businesswoman and philanthropist of the world and pursues her career with energy and ambition.

Her passionate outgoing nature can create jealousy in others, and if she does not sometimes tread carefully and understand that not everyone is as confident as her, she may experience hostile reactions.

Prone to throwing tantrums or feeling sorry for herself when not on top of her game, she can easily alienate people.

To develop balance in her life, the queen of wands must learn when is the right time for her passion and drive, versus when patience and tact are called for.


Queen of Swords

Card 2 (Queen of Swords) : Your Personality Court Card  »

A woman with an agile mind, intelligent and articulate she is able to think at light-speed and can sweet-talk herself out of the trickiest situations!

With such a quick wit and quick thinking normally comes quick talking! She is the great orator, negotiator, sales woman, TV presenter, actor and teacher of this world.

She loves communication whether it’s over coffee with a friend, on the phone, texting on her mobile or email, and she never runs out of things to talk about!

Her strength is her ability to see solutions that others don’t due to her analytical mind and ability to see things conceptually.

Her free spirit, sense of fun and ability to thrive on change makes her great fun to be around. People certainly never find her boring.

Her negative traits/weakness can be that she talks too much and does not listen enough. This can sometimes make her appear self centered and insensitive to others.

Having a low boredom threshold she can also appear fickle and superficial.

This can lead to commitment issues both at work and in romance, so she needs to work on being more pragmatic and disciplined to find success in love and life.

October tarot reading


The October tarot reading is mostly encouraging. I think I’d feel more excited about it if I didn’t feel so absolutely miserable today. Upon waking I thought that I had recovered from yesterday’s severe migraine (the worst I had in a long time), but of course shortly after getting to work I started feeling like I’d rather die. At this stage returning home isn’t an option – not sure if I’ll make it, the way I’m feeling right now. There is the option of getting on the Gautrain, but don’t know how I’d get home from the station, or back to work tomorrow, if my car remains here. I’d really like to go to my GP and have a few things checked out also. Oh well. On to the reading.

The MagicianCard 1 (The Magician) : How you feel about yourself now  »

You feel a sense of purpose and the willpower to get things done. Self-empowerment is the key word here. Any new enterprises in love or career show great potential. You feel that you have the ability to think on your feet and, faced with opposition, the appearance of The Magician is an excellent omen of success. Time to believe in your self and go for it!


The Hanged Man

Card 2 (The Hanged Man) : What you most want at this moment  »

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is to have it all, why should you have to give something or someone up? Perhaps you feel a victim and that events are not going as planned. Trust that this is a passage from one phase of your life to another. If you are not sure what or who you need to give up, trust that what will be will be, and will ultimately be to your benefit.

The Hierophant

Card 3 (The Hierophant) : Your fears  »

Are you really your best counsel? Probably not at this moment in time. You are worried that you will sell yourself short and agree to something that you don’t feel morally comfortable with. For example you may really desire marriage but the offer has been ‘let’s live together’. You may be looking at a job or business opportunity but you question how ethical it is. Seek out an advisor you can trust such as a teacher, priest, parent or anyone you have respect for. They will be happy to help.

The Devil

Card 4 (The Devil) : What is going for you  »

There’s a possibility of permanence here. If you’re considering a commitment in a relationship or marriage this is a good sign. However question your motives because here we have temptation and addiction, and a desire to be controlled or controlling. So use your intuition and if you recognise what you feel as sincere, great, if not you still have a chance to change direction. If considering giving up a bad habit, such as smoking or drinking for example, now is a good time to start.

The Empress

Card 5 (The Empress) : What is going against you  »

There are conflicts around you, frustrations and possibly a break up in a relationship. Be careful not to over-react and be too protective or dictatorial about your needs, and whatever you do, do not resort to emotional blackmail, it won’t do you any favours. You may be experiencing infertility problems or an unplanned pregnancy, if so just know that there are people around you who love and care for you and will provide support.

The Fool

Card 6 (The Fool) : Outcome  »

Open your mind and soul to new possibilities this is a time to realise your full potential, follow your instincts and act on your hunches. A time for spontaneity, fun and surprises. However, be mindful of being too impulsive – your decisions should be based on experience and knowledge of self.