My latest obsession can be viewed here. Will someone please buy me one of the two-bedroom units on the second floor?
I have reached a point where I don’t see a reason to go on.
I need to spend money I don’t have to replace my car’s battery and fit new tyres. I was sort of prepared for the tyres, although that would’ve meant I max out my credit card and be twice as deep in financial worries as I am now. Since yesterday afternoon I’ve been having trouble with the battery, and of course there aren’t any places open on a Sunday. Not that I’d be able to get anywhere even if they were open. So now I have to use my last petrol money for the month. I’m supposed to be in Pretoria next weekend, and there are still three weeks until the next pay day. One way or another, I’m fucked over good and proper.
I’m miserable. I hate my job & circumstances, but there is nothing I can do about this. I have to work in order to just, at least, try to pay everything that needs paying.
I take two strong antidepressants each day in an effort to carry on and not let life get me down too much. For the last two weeks it’s not working, and I am ready to give up. Because I really don’t see the point of all this anymore.
The last two days have been positive for me, especially at work. I hope it lasts; according to the cards it will.
Card 1 (Justice) : How you feel about yourself now »
You are feeling that things will go your way, you believe in fairness and justice in all things. If you are considering partnership issues, personal or professional, dealings will go well. Perhaps you are about to sign a contract or legal document, this will be beneficial to you. If someone has done wrong to you it will be put right and you will feel justice has been done.
Card 2 (Strength) : What you most want at this moment »
The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is to find the strength and will power to see you through and achieve what you want. It is important to come from a place of love and tolerance though, and not aggression. Put your fears to rest and develop a positive attitude and you’ll reap richer rewards.
Card 3 (The Hierophant) : Your fears »
Are you really your best counsel? Probably not at this moment in time. You are worried that you will sell yourself short and agree to something that you don’t feel morally comfortable with. For example you may really desire marriage but the offer has been ‘let’s live together’. You may be looking at a job or business opportunity but you question how ethical it is. Seek out an advisor you can trust such as a teacher, priest, parent or anyone you have respect for. They will be happy to help.
Card 4 (The Empress) : What is going for you »
The harvest is here; you are entering an abundant time of happiness and joy. Creative energy is high so if you are considering starting a family, a new job or artistic endeavour this is a favourable time. Relax and enjoy.
Card 5 (The World) : What is going against you »
As always, fear holds us back and so often leads to missed opportunities. Do not give up or change direction this late in the game just because you have experienced delays – stick with it, have faith and trust the universe, and you will reach the successful conclusion you are wanting.
Card 6 (The Moon) : Outcome »
Whilst you are confused and fearful and allowing your anxieties to hold you back, trust that all will turn out well in the end. Things may seem tough or confusing but stick with it, its right for you. The Moon is a good omen if you are in a clandestine affair and helps guide us to open our minds to new and unexpected possibilities.